i'm trying

I don't know what this is going to be about. Mostly to document sobriety and what that's like for someone who has been drinking pretty steadily for a really long time, with some pretty nasty binges thrown in for flavor. It's public and probably too personal because I have terrible boundaries and I like to over-share.

I'm at 11 days of sobriety as of today. That's the longest time I've ever gone without a drink since I was 19. I'm 31 now. Luckily, I have the advantage and privilege of Campral to help with cravings and to balance my damaged brain chemistry to a somewhat normal state. I'm also back on Wellbutrin and non-benzo meds for anxiety.

Tonight I start an IOP (Intenseive Outpatient Program) that is 3 hours 5 nights a week. I'll let you know how that goes.

This is going to be hard, but I'm trying.